On April 23, 2011 at 3:33pm, my Memaw went to heaven.
Just typing that, makes me get a lump in my throat and tears form in my eyes. No matter how much you think you have prepared yourself for the inevitable, it's still hard to accept. My entire family has questioned why? Why did we have lose Memaw and Papaw before they were already gone to a horrible disease. Alzheimer's. But, God knows why. And, we accept that. We don't understand it, but we accept it.
On that day, a Saturday, I got up really early. Earlier than usual. I had a ridiculous headache the night before and went to bed around 8pm so I was up around 4:30 am watching the rest of the ACM-Girls Night Out show that I fell asleep during the night before. I received a phone call from my Dad and he told me the news--Memaw was not doing good at all.
I kid you not--as soon as I got off the phone, Carrie Underwood took the stage. She sang this song and I just sat there in shock. I needed it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drcDYibP1pE&feature=player_detailpage
Memaw passed peacefully--the sun peeked out between clouds the moment she took her last breath. It was almost as if God was saying, "welcome home".
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| My Parents, Todd and I, and Memaw and Papaw. 11.25.2006 |
I'm so glad that my boys both got to meet my Memaw. While they won't remember it, I will. Memaw was still at home when we brought Ty to her house--the first stop we made on Ty's first trip to Louisville as a 2 week old. She was walking down the street and we propped Ty up in his carseat, sitting next to Papaw, so when she made the final turn of her walk she would see him. When she turned the corner she sped up. So fast, we had to make her sit down immediately when she got to us because she couldn't catch her breath. Todd gently placed our little baby boy in Memaws arms, mine inter-twined with hers and we sat there. She kissed him and talked him in baby talk--it was beautiful. And, then she asked me how my "tits" were holding up. Not kidding. She knew the breast feeding thing was not going good for me and she wanted to know the scoop.
My Memaw was a pistol. You never knew what was going to come out of her mouth. Ever. We laugh about this all the time because, well, that's Memaw for ya!
For the grandkids (Jeff, Jamie, my sister Amy, and myself), it was always a big deal to bring new boyfriends and girlfriends around our small and mighy family. You were so nervous to leave the room if Memaw was with them because she'd tell them exactly what she was thinking, "you keep your zipper zipped ya hear me?".
No, I'm not kidding.
Memaw loved her grandkids more than words. She paid us $1 for everything from A's on our report cards to hitting a homerun. It eventually turned into everytime she saw us. She was so excited to give us $1's and she started to give our close friends $1's too when they did good on the court or field. When you see your grandparents as often as we did, those $1's really add up!
She loved ice cream. LOVED it. She always had ice cream and cokes at her house--something she said she didn't have as a kid and she wanted us to have whenever we wanted them. The Sunkist was always for me and she made sure to let me know.
Memaw was the most loyal person I know--a trait that I'm proud to say that I possess. She and Papaw had several friends that joined our family at all of our family gatherings. They are our family too. She loved her friends and family so much and she'd do anything to help them out.
Every time I played a game, Memaw and Papaw were there. I didn't even ask if they were coming. I knew they'd be there. They were there before the game started and they were proud. They didn't care what event it was, they were there with smiles on their face. Just thinking about that makes me smile. Everyone has grandparents, but I was lucky because mine were at everything I did. My friends knew them. My teammates knew them. My coaches knew them. Mine were there for me when I was doing what I loved.
Memaw, I know you're up there just polishing away on those pearly, golden gates in heaven. I know there's ice cream galore and I know you have a closet full of shoes that's bigger than the old Bacon's shoe department. I hope there are Sharpie markers in every color at your disposal because sometimes writing "LEE" in black is boring. You have a front row seat to every UofL game now and I'm pretty sure fig newtons and White Castle onion rings and chocolate shakes are just a phone call away. I hope your Soaps are playing all day for you and it doesn't rain so you don't have to wear a rain hat. I hope you've found a good beauty shop there too--we all know you like to get your "hair did".
Thank you Memaw. Thank you for being there for me. You cheered for me, you prayed for me, and you supported me in every single thing I did in my life. Thank you for making me laugh (I love quoting you...we all do actually and it's kind of theraputic!) and thank you for putting me in my place when I needed it (Lord knows I needed it).
Memaw, I love you. More than words.
Love,
Pooh (yes, yours truly was shortened from Audie Pooh Bear to "Pooh" by Memaw. And, only Memaw!)